Mirror

i have issues with self image. it began as far back as i can remember. because of all of the negativity i was subjected to as a small child and other events up into my adult years, i have become my own worst enemy and i have chosen to view myself in the same manner as those who abused me. i see myself as no good, ugly, and worthless.

i read an article about positive affirmations. in the article it said something along the lines of, how can you expect to be truly loved by others if you can't truly love yourself. the task they challenged the reader to do seemed simple. i didn't realize how hard it would be.

the reader was asked to stand in front of a mirror and look at themselves for 10 minutes, with no negative thoughts about themselves for those minutes, only telling your image that you are loved. 

i tried this. i found it almost impossible to do. i lasted 2 minutes.  i even cried. 

i will not give up though. i have made it a mission to be able to look at my reflection in that mirror and say i love you and mean it. i will make it to ten minutes! 

why don't you join me in my quest to love myself more and be open to love from others!

Hello!

i am not new to blogging. this was actually my first blog. i have moved all of those posts and such to a different blog and this one was just sitting here, gathering dust...... so i thought why not write on it as well! i have had this one since 2007. this blog helped me through so many things.

time to rekindle my dear old friend.

to new beginnings!